God sees favour in me.

I am feeling so much better today. Thanks to the cell group I went last night. I learnt about Solomon, and how he had all the riches in the world, yet he still felt empty.

I'm not saying that we all should lead improvished lives. We are all rich in the blessings of the Lord ok! What I'm saying is.. All the material things in this world should never rule over you. Can you bring them with you after you die? Even if you can, what for? In heaven. your house is made of solid Gold and decorated with all the jewels you can imagine. Even some plants there are made of Jade! What's a Gucci or LV bag to God?

A few months ago, I went on a spending spree. I spent every single cent I earn. In the end, I had to dig into my savings account to last me to the end of the month. Each month, I am broke, but I thought I was happy. Wrong. I was only happy for the first 1,2 weeks after buying the bag/item, but after that, I had to live with the foolishness of my decision. Now if you ask me, I still get the occasional urge to buy something that costs me about $1000+. But I ask myself, is there really a need to do so? What kind of image do I want to project to others if they see me carrying such a bag? What do I gain from this? I realised, I just wanted to show off.

I just wanted to show others that I'm earning enough to be able to afford this very expensive item. I wanted others to think I am holding a high position job, where in fact, in my lowest, I had to pump shit from the toilet as part of my job scope. (I shall never go into that) But, can you imagine a Prada carrying, suit wearing girl pumping the toilet in her heels? *faints* So anyway, my point is, I wanted to buy a "feel good feeling" This feeling enpowers me, and with me and my Gucci/Prada bag, I feel I can face the world. People will see me with new found respect. (Get real ok) Let me tell you why it's such a stupid thinking. I feel like a mini bimbo now.

1. This feeling lasts you till you find out you only have $2 in your wallet. And $1.56 left in your account.

2. You start wondering if you should sell your bag, and when you decide to do so (cause you so obviously need the money) you realise that people will only buy your bag at less than half of what you paid for it. !##$%%^$# right?

3. You have to resort to borrowing money from your friends. Then you have to return it when you have money the next month. But because you have so many debts to return, you end up being poor again.

4. This is the main reason why we shouldn't allow it to rule our head. Jesus is our main provider. He is all we need. Jesus already bought you the "feel good feeling" when He died on the cross for you. You don't need to have to resort to buying material things to make yourself feel good because when you have God, you automatically feel good inside. Granted, there are days when you feel like a total shit. Trust me, my mood swings are very very severe. But you see, I allowed Satan to rob me of my happiness when I stopped reading the bible or stopped talking to God. But whenever I do so, my heart finds peace and I naturally look at things the other way, the more positive way. I no longer become so negative, but see every negativity as a opportunity to learn something and then turn it into something positive. I focused on the things that really mattered to me. Which is to clear all my debts and seeing my bank account grow. My finances is in the hands of my God. Why? Because whatever He gave me, He can take it away from me just as easily too.

But, know that in this world, when we have Jesus, we have no lack for anything.


Plan your life as if you're going to live forever, but live your life as if you're going to die tomorrow.

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Fully surrendered to you, my Lord.