Confused....

I am at a cross road where I don't really know what I should do with my life right now.

I always wondered why God wanted me out of SAP when I was doing just fine there... with lots of good friends and a rather decent salary. Now I am stuck with looking for another job again. I know I should leave it to Him to arrange for me a wonderful job.. but I can't help but have doubts. Haiz..

The walk of a Christian life is really never easy. It's really hard to just simply fall back on God for everything, but this is exactly what He wants me to do. I'll somehow gotta find the strength in me to pull myself up and continue believing in Him.

Oh well.. I can't think of much to write now.. But I just wanna let you all know that I'm not dead yet, still pretty much alive, but because of a sudden bout of depression, I've become a hermit in hiding..

So please pray for me people.

Shalom.



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Fully surrendered to you, my Lord.

Happy New Year!!

It's the year 09! Finally another new year. 08 had been a year full of pleasant and some not very pleasant surprises. As I sit here, jobless and waiting for God to send a super duper good job over to me, I reflect on the nice things that happened in 08.

In 08, I made some very good friends, eg. Gwen, Janet, Alex, Alvin, Richie.. These are friends who provided non stop entertainment whenever I'm bored.

I've also managed to pay off some old debts and incur even lesser new ones.

I've started attending church again, and have been going to God for every aspect of my life.

As I reflect on some past mistakes, although some were pretty painful, it's still a good lesson learned and I'll try and refrain from making the same mistakes again.

So for my 09 resolutions..

1. Walk right with God, attend church and LISTEN

2. Save even more money and not touch it. My house is going to be completed either at the end of 09 or the start of 10. I won't wanna live in a house without any furniture but a bed

3. Not incur any credit card debts

4. Learn a new language, or a new sport, or a new something something

5. Get myself a permanent job. No more contract jobs if possible

6. Start losing weight and eating right in preparation for a baby. (not yet, but it's always good to have your body at it's optimum)

7. Keep my room clean and neat

8. Limit my KFCs to once a month only

9. Love my family even more. Appreciate them for who they are, cause even though we will never be apart, there's no reason for treating them for granted

10. Give more love to Jackye. Frankly, I'm all he's got

Happy New Year to you all and may your coming year be a year full of love and abundance!


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Fully surrendered to you, my Lord.